I’d been afraid of changing ’cause I’d built my life around you,
But life makes you bolder and even children get older,
And I’m getting older too…
I had been afraid of changing because I had built my life around certain people, certain ideals, certain expectations. Once I acknowledged my heart, what I’ve known for a long time, the changes didn’t seem so radical. The fear seemed to subside. Certainly there is apprehension at the unknown, but not fear.
My brother said something to me before I left. He said “do you remember when I was leaving for Ft. Leonard Wood and you told me “I hope you find what you are looking for?” I said “yes, I remember that, “he went on to say “well, I hope you find what you are looking for.” I hugged my brother, told him that I had found what I was looking for, that I loved him and said goodbye.
When I said that to my brother all those years ago, I was referring to a spiritual hole that he was desperately searching to fill. That hole has been filled in me for many years. However, I think that my brother is wiser than he gets credit for many times. There is something I’m searching for. Something just below the surface. Something that I get glimpses of now and then, but I need to see fully.
Yes brother, I do believe that I will find what I’m looking for.
And the landslide will bring it to me.
Alaska on my mind... 
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Sometimes (when we get older – means more life moments – growth) we see the trees through the forest. Not only open eyes but open hearts. Only our Lord can gift us that through love!
You are so sweet…I love you, too, Brandi. Hugging you in my head.
P.S….I don’t blame you a bit for loving me…snicker…(just had to say it) Love, Richie.
We are all loving and hugging you in our “heads”…I feel your heartache :*)…I love you, Moohair!