Life has a way of keeping us distracted. Work, drama, family life, all those little things that make up our world.
I’ve been working a job that has had me working Sabbaths, which has been very difficult. I’ve struggled with every Saturday since I got the job. An inner turmoil, not wanting to work, yet finding myself in need of an income. One of those reasons that kept me there in my former life for so long. It’s hard being a single mother. It’s hard to find reliable childcare. Even those with the best of intentions and hearts get burnt out. They have lives to live too. As do I.
All this time, working a job with horrible hours, working Sabbaths, being away from my kids, who I do miss terribly… it all adds up.
I had to put in my notice with my current employer due to family commitments. So I’m on the hunt again for employment that will let me be flexible and spend time with my kiddos and bring in an adequate income at the same time and let me have Sabbaths off. Not an easy fix.
Someone once asked me how I could stay married to someone who didn’t communicate with me for so along. Well, this is one of the reasons, because I knew how difficult single parenting was/is. “It’s hard.” is an understatement. But I can’t imagine continuing with the way things were either. I don’t regret my move, or decision to divorce and start over, but it’s not always easy. Somethings in life aren’t easy. But they are worth it.
Alaska on my mind... 